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I can't sleep, and when I can't fall asleep, I just think a lot. I am trying to divert my mind by doing something else while I stay awake. The realms of dreams of the unwanted region is devastating and just ruining the mind from inside. I feel something else from inside. The main thing is " Why am I acting so strange these days? "
The people are like making me realize that you are not the same old jackass who makes fun of people, who laughs at everything, literally everything. The fun part inside me died. The past, the events and the person changed me completely. Like in the old, classical Narayan Gopal song, a person can change someone really close to him/her. The truth behind all these changes is being to close as I knew that I come with an expiry date and I am gonna bid goodbye eventually, sooner or later.
The pains and the tears are not my thing, I can fake smiles and still laugh at everything hiding the deepest truths behind my smile, as someone really close said that I have a 'Killer Smile' and I like to show off.
The satire was played by someone else. I have no right to blame you as it was not your fault, not even mine. The post says shits about our lives, but eventually it led us to changes that we needed to improve the quality of our lives.
I can't step back as its the worst way to live a life, I know that we are all gonna die one day and even if we step back, we are not gonna be able to stall our deaths, but the thing is that, the changes, the actions you have improved through the different scenarios and the experiences you have gained in the process are really essential for rest of the life.
I am no more "The Joke" as its already dead inside me. I play the character of "Pratik Ghimire" and I am like a puppet of the God's cards. The script is already written and I just have to act in it and re write the ending. Striving hard and walking through the path I have created facing all the changes with some new and old faces is what I am gonna do, the devil inside me doesn't like to be close with anyone, that is the change I feel right now, I know its not the end of my life but the change is always better. I don't love my life but I respect it.
The people are like making me realize that you are not the same old jackass who makes fun of people, who laughs at everything, literally everything. The fun part inside me died. The past, the events and the person changed me completely. Like in the old, classical Narayan Gopal song, a person can change someone really close to him/her. The truth behind all these changes is being to close as I knew that I come with an expiry date and I am gonna bid goodbye eventually, sooner or later.
The pains and the tears are not my thing, I can fake smiles and still laugh at everything hiding the deepest truths behind my smile, as someone really close said that I have a 'Killer Smile' and I like to show off.
The satire was played by someone else. I have no right to blame you as it was not your fault, not even mine. The post says shits about our lives, but eventually it led us to changes that we needed to improve the quality of our lives.
I can't step back as its the worst way to live a life, I know that we are all gonna die one day and even if we step back, we are not gonna be able to stall our deaths, but the thing is that, the changes, the actions you have improved through the different scenarios and the experiences you have gained in the process are really essential for rest of the life.
I am no more "The Joke" as its already dead inside me. I play the character of "Pratik Ghimire" and I am like a puppet of the God's cards. The script is already written and I just have to act in it and re write the ending. Striving hard and walking through the path I have created facing all the changes with some new and old faces is what I am gonna do, the devil inside me doesn't like to be close with anyone, that is the change I feel right now, I know its not the end of my life but the change is always better. I don't love my life but I respect it.
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