Confusion..Migraine Mode Activated!!

Lightening followed by the thundering sound followed the waves of my heart and struck me with full force. The sound was tempting but the heartbeat rate was speeding like a sports car. Numerous conversations and moments arising inside the mind, tried to drift my attention away from the thunderous sound of the sky. The soothing sound of raindrops was of no help at all. I tried to play with the light switch of my room, entering and exiting the darkness simultaneously. The thought of taking a decision finally was inside my mind. I knew I had to, but how can I, the heart was repeating through its beats. The tiny drops of tears sliding down the cheeks remembering the days of the past, when you were happy and smiling like the luckiest person in the world. "Time flies, and everything flies away and changes with time". The spring was over, let the wind blow your happiness away and wait for autumn to swipe away your pains and problems. As we all know, life is a circle, and happiness sadness pains achievements all comes inside the circle. The heart was telling me to stay still and not to do anything but the mind and the shit advice from the so called relationship advisers (who are single) wants me to take some decisions to figure out my life. The consequences was well known, the bunch of friends I'd lose and the state I'd be in, I was about to go through all these stages for that person, but does that person deserve all these? The confusion inside the mind is making me insane. The pain through over thinking has resulted to a migraine. I might enter the stage of depression. I couldn't control my mind anymore, typed whatever I felt it was right. "The happiness I was seeking with you, that I find no more now, someone else made me realize that I deserve better, the selfish heart is willing to go through pains and sufferings for that person and apology is just not gonna be accepted this time, the journey I planned with you has ended today I guess, I hope we will meet at some point, same old but with a brand new path." Regret it as soon as I pressed the enter button, "What did I do?" I don't know if I took the right decision. Did I just let go of the soul mate of my life? The myths and ancient history made us believe that once you start acting on the written script, anything can happen. The mistakes, this time can't be forgiven. But at the end of the day, I still think, the sacrifices I did for him, does he deserve it? The confusion strikes my mind again with the same old migraine.